Have suicide thoughts and far not what I should do is desperate not further
Turn to friends and a psychologist. Have a psychologist is absolutely no shame and I hope you can do that. Are you looking for a therapist that you can entrust yourself, that helps most
I'm incredibly sorry to hear. You must definitely talk to a familiar person, and if there are no, with a therapist. Let me help. It gets better but I believe you need help from the outside. I hope you will soon be better
call the number for grief
Call 112 and say it there. Depending on the urgency, you get a bed in a clinic.
make appointment with therapist.